I’ve been to this really small school for about five years when, last year,my parents decided to put me in a different school. Around that time, I became sort of indifferent to everything. A couple years back, I’d be totally excited for every little holiday, but now, I feel somewhat apathetic, even if it’s say… Christmas. I just don’t seem to care for my friends as much as before. Before, it was like, "I can’t possibly imagine life without friends!". But now, I feel like everything would just be easier to be alone. It’s like I’m too lazy to interact with people.
I can no longer say I have any hobbies. Books bore me, I just skip to the end. Every time I try to draw or write, I feel inept and think, "I don’t want to do this. I’m horrible at it." I’d start something and leave it unfinished unless it was something that is necessary to complete, like schoolwork. I just can’t find the motivation to do anything.
I used to be pretty agreeable, but now I just want to snap at anyone who even mildly irritates me.
I’m back at the school I left now, but since it’s such a small school, I feel so cramped. It’s like I’m suffocating since I’m always talking to the same people about the same things. Most of the time, the people I hang out with aren’t even people I’d call "friends". They’re just people thrust into the same social group as me because of academic abilities. Whenever I hear my ‘friends’ talking or whispering to each other, I fell isolated, and I’m always paranoid that they’re saying things about me.
I’ve always done well in academics, but lately I can’t concentrate. I go over a passage over and over just to grasp the concept. It’s not that I don’t get it, I just can’t focus on it. I’m reading the words, but I’m not really comprehending the sentence. I finish reading, then think, "Wait. What did I read again?"
Is this normal for a teenager? Is it just a phase? If it is, any tips on how to deal with it? I realize how annoying my actions sometimes. Sometimes when I’m more energetic, I look back at my own behavior and it kind of scares/irritates me.